We had a great Thanksgiving weekend with Caitlin, Erica and Chase! Ever since my parents have lived overseas we've made it a new tradition to run the Turkey Trot and then eat lunch at Luby's with the blue hairs. Over the long weekend we participated in Black Friday shopping, went to see the movie "Morning Glory", cooked, and rested.
Before the Turkey Trot
A cold and cloudy race day in Dallas
Running the race
Feelin' good after the race
Lunch at Luby's
Chase and Riese relaxing
The resting part of the holiday was great, but on the flip side, it puts my sadness of our adoption timeline to the forefront of my thoughts.
On January 1st we'll have been in the adoption process for 1 year! When we began the process we thought that maybe at most it would take a year and a half total, but here we are today knowing that they will have processed only 20 adoptions total in 2010. If we do the math, and assuming they pick up a little speed, we are talking about a 5 year wait from now which makes me totally nauseated! It will be a miracle if we have our baby any sooner.
What is so maddening about the process is that it's a roller coaster- all of which seems to be going downhill fast. Throughout the processs we keep hearing news of encouragement- sad part is, it's unreliable. It's really hard to be told "things are going to speed up", "the wait will be 4-6 months", "they are going to process one dossier per day" and so you're on this high, and then weeks and months pass and it doesn't happen and there is so much disappointment. The problem I have is I want to believe all the good news. I wish I could just count on the worst and so I would be happy with anything else, but it's difficult to do when you're praying for a miracle and waiting on a child that you know God has planned for you. This is so hard!
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I want to believe all the good news too. It's so hard not to get excited when you hear positive things but it makes it much worse when those things don't happen. I think that I have almost done better when I don't hear anything - good or bad. That way it's just waiting without so much daily up and down.
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