Yesterday I had two things that really lifted my spirits. In the morning I met with Chelsea Jacobs, who is also in the adoption line with us, for coffee. I can not describe how therapeutic it is to meet with adoption couples who are also in the wait for a Rwandan baby. We share some similar heartaches, prayers, desires, frustrations, etc. Then, in the evening we chatted on Skype with Marc Simpao and their precious little boy Roman from Rwanda who they just adopted a few weeks ago. We love their family and we're excited to go visit them around Christmas.
Last night my dad encouraged me with this verse of God's promise:
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." ~Philippians 4:6-7
I'm so tired of being sensitive, hurt, angry, jealous and anxious- all of which do not come from the Lord (not to mention distracting and exhausting). I've been at a spot where I started to get tired of praying- mostly out of disappointment. I felt like God knew my heart and how much I wanted a child, but this verse really encouraged me. So now as I'm praying for our child to come soon, I'm also praying for God's peace. I'm back to trusting in God's plan and not my own. I'm sure this will waver in time but it's nice for the moment to feel God's peace.
(Tomorrow we'll have been DTR for 3 months. Not that it matters since we don't have an estimation of the time line... just saying. And I'll also say that it feels like a lot longer than 3 months!)
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Grateful for His word and the way that he uses it and others to encourage us and remind us that He's got it all in his hands. Praying for that peace that surpasses all understanding for you... and still praying hard for your baby! - Missy
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